Firstly Jan told me Janet's findings: overall is grief suppression, which upsets my inner balance, and also have liver, kidney, heart, gall bladder and adrenal problems and my cold hands and feet show a tendency towards diabetes something-or-other (a particular type that's to do with circulation - I really should have written everything down! LOL). Bear in mind that this is based on the Chinese medicine principals of body energies and healing, so doesn't mean I'm heading for organ failures - it means the functions of these organs are depressed or out of alignment in some way which is causing knock-on health effects, such as high blood pressure. I asked Jan if having a course of acupuncture would help me: it would but she didn't recommend it just yet. She's attending a Chinese Medicine Conference shortly and asked for permission to take my notes with her, so she can discuss my health issues, with a view to taking the Chinese approach to my healing via the herbs she prescribes in my medicine. She wants the medicine to be spot on, so I can really start to benefit from that, before helping things further with the acupuncture - a case of making sure what is prescribed is working first, rather than doing all kinds of treatments and not really knowing which ones are helping/benefiting me the most.
As for the grief suppression: she'd spoken with Aureen and they both felt that, at this point, Aureen was the best person to deal with that, through the Reiki treatments and development she is giving. This led on to me finally opening up to tell Jan about my parent's deaths and the medical negligence involved in both. When I told her about Mum she asked why we hadn't gone to court over it. There were various reasons but the main one was that Dad didn't want to start what we all knew would be a long term and long-winded process, one that he thought he might not live long enough to see through to the end (presentiment of what was to come? I feel so) - he didn't want to leave it to us to finish, as he didn't want us to have the hassle - we respected his decision. We had also had the stuffing well and truly knocked out of us all by the suddeness of Mum's passing too, walking around in shock for many months afterwards - just getting through those days was hard enough. Jan felt that if I had fought this and channelled my grief and anger into getting justice it would have helped the grief process better - rather than it all getting bottled up inside, as it has. To be honest I have to agree...... but it's too late for regretting it and too late for doing anything about it now. I apologised to Jan for being so upset etc but I thought it would probably help her to know just what had happened and what was going on in my head (how it affected and still affects me) when it came to the treatment she prescribes - she told me there was no need for apology and agreed it would help. Today I feel talking about it all to Jan has been a big step forward - a cathartic experience. It's truly time to accept what happened, let it all go and move on. Some part of me is beginning to heal, slowly but surely. :0)
As usual the diary sheets were handed over so Jan could see what I'd been eating and how my body and moods had been since my last visit and how I was going with the L-Glutamine tablets. My stomach is still not right but that is down to the Candida trying to fight the amino acids in the L-Glutamine that are designed to fix the leaky gut the Candida gives sufferers - it's a case of persevering though because the benefits to my health will be worth it in the long run. To help counteract the digestive problems she gave me some Digestive Capsules that contain slippery elm, chamomile and calendula, all of which have calming properties - have to take two capsules half an hour before meals. I've got two weeks of these to take but go back to see Jan in three weeks time - this is to see if my stomach problems improve in those two weeks then deteriorate again in the week before I see her, when I'm not taking the capsules. This will help her to know what is and isn't working.
The hunger I've been feeling this last couple of weeks has two causes: the L-Glutamine amino acids are pulling in more nutrients, especially proteins, to help fix the leaky gut - it's probably making me want more to compensate for it; then there's gentian been added to my medicine (as an anti-inflammatory for my gut) but it's also used on anorexics, to encourage their appetites. Anorexic I definitely ain't but it's certainly triggering my appetite! Jan also explained all the ins and outs of the use of the L-Glutamine, as when I did an internet search it kept coming up with it's use by body builders. As I said to her: my hormones are already out of kilter, with a dark hair problem caused by too much testosterone production - I didn't fancy further confusing things and end up growing man-bits, thanks! ROFL Now I know the cause and effect of everything I'm happier and can deal with it.
Monthly wise there was no new news, as I haven't had my next one yet, as it's due on Monday, while I'm on holiday - Oh, joy! I'd been hoping it would set off early - like this week - so it would have been more or less over and done with by then. I told Jan I'd been jumping off the bottom step to encourage it but it was having none of it, which made her laugh.
The weigh in then came. I had been 12stone 9lbs, then I gained 1lb in a week at my previous consult - this time I was back to 12stone 9lbs. I'm happy with that as I'd truly thought, thanks to all the extra food I'd been eating, that I would have gained some..... and actually felt like I had. Yup, getting back to 12stone 9lbs is good! Lots of walking around planned for our holiday, in the hopes I can burn off some more calories/fat and show a loss at my next visit! :0) We didn't bother with blood pressure - there was no point, as I knew it would be all over the place after talking about such emotional things. Jan is going to concentrate on the blood pressure at my next consult, as she'll have been to the Conference by then.
After making the next appointment, paying for my dues and a herbal tea, I thanked her and left. Next stop was Wilko's for some toiletries for our holiday, then Help the Aged to have a nosey through their books, then picked up some diabetic biscuits on the way home. I didn't call in at the Hospice Bookshop as planned as it was getting late and past time for my dinner - plus I was already toting a couple of bags already, one of which had a bottle in it containing three weeks worth of medicine, so was rather heavy.
All told, the consult was an emotional but very productive session that I feel was of mutual benefit, in that it helped me to open up and thus will aid Jan's treatment of me.
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Sounds like you had another good visit.
I know when i had my counselling and i was able to talk to a 'stranger' who did not judge me it was a huge help and just to be able to tell someone exactly how i felt and not feel like i was judged seemed to be different somehow ... does that make sense?? or am i waffling AGAIN!!!
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